Fuck everything and fuck everyone. How dare I put certain aspects of my life before my own self? At the end of the day who is going to be there for me but myself? What if I lose those who claim to love me -> if I don't love my own self than what else will I have? I realized tonight that I'm a hypocrite because I tell people to be strong and to not give a fuck when I can't even do that shit for myself. 

You should be making me feel comfortable in front of your friends when I meet them for the first time. You should not make me feel like a fucking idiot, asshole, and make me the target of every joke just to get yourself a few fucking laughs.

I could legit punch a hole in someone's face right now.